B - My Hospital Experience
In 1994 I was admitted into
a specialised Hospital in Dublin. There I spent 3 month in a psychiatric ward.
I was placed on an eating disorders
program which basically consisted of a very high emphasis on weight
gain and an extremely low emphasis on mental and emotional
well-being. I brief, the approach involved weekly weighing where weight loss or stability was considered a failure,
and weight gain, a success. Following the result of the weigh-in, a
series of concessions were either given or removed depending on how
‘well’ you had done. We all soon learned that the quicker we put
on weight, the quicker we could ‘escape’.
The huge emphasis on
the physical symptoms and rapid weight gain was devastating
mentally. Feeling of isolation, fear, loneliness, misunderstood,
anger, detachment, etc…., deepened immensely. I felt completely
lost and bewildered and totally unprepared when I was eventually
I can say without a
doubt that my hospital experience was extremely unhelpful, if not
damaging, to my recovery as whole.
When I was
discharged, my health and my emotional and mental state dramatically
worsened rapidly once again. The follow-up out-patient care I
received proved completely inadequate. At no point were the
underlying issues of my eating distress tackled, only an approach
dealing with the symptoms and ‘short-term fix’. This in my case
and in my point of view is an extremely unsuccessful and quite
detrimental approach, which can have damaging long-term effect on
R. I. P.
Maria - you will be for ever in our hearts